Monday, February 15, 2010

009-Deprivation “de”motivates

Long lasting dietary changes are more likely to stick if they are done gradually. This is a passage I read in a book I just purchased entitled "The Complete Idiot's guide to Eating Raw (Reinfeld, Rinaldi, and Murray)." I have had the worst past couple of weeks with regard to my newly chosen lifestyle as a raw foodist. When I say "worst" I am referring to the inability to remain true to my raw food life. I have a wholesome desire to be one hundred percent raw and I have the ability to do so. What I am finding out is that no matter what I may think I can accomplish, old habits truly die hard in every sense of the word.

I have been able to go for one hundred days without breaking my pledge to be raw. I have been able to drink pure/whole fruit juice for an entire day (for some, this may seem minuscule). Now that I have declared (insert drum roll here..hahaha) by proclamation of a new year's resolution that I am "A RAW FOODIST" I have had all sorts of obstacles creep up beside me and leave bags of green onion flavored potato chips and chocolate covered raisins at my feet (lol).I have since renamed my new lifestyle to more appropriately describe this journey. I find a deeper meaning in calling myself a "practicing" raw foodist rather than jumping in with both feet.

I believe myself to be on information overload and it's time to purge. One of my issues is the emotional feelings that I have attached to the foods I have eaten over the years. Some call them comfort foods. I have found that when I desire these foods, and subsequently deprive myself of them, I turn into an over analyzing guru of sorts. Comparing this to that and finding falsehoods in many of the practices I demonstrated in my initial one hundred day raw food and fitness journey. I "purge" this from my system now. I will replace this de-motivating act with positive books to read and discussions with those I feel are honest and trustworthy enough to really listen to my dilemma and offer their sincere thoughts, moral support, and camaraderie.

In the meantime, I feel the need for a "do-over" and I will take this opportunity to accept my own challenge. Check back in a few weeks to see what the future holds.